Coley0307

So,Ive been debating on whether or not to delete this account and start a new, i takes way too much time to delete deviations, it would be so much easier if i could just delete multiple photos at once. but nooo, thats asking too much. ugh, that is all.

Those big brown eyes and that huge gummy smile makes me happy on even the saddest days. Before she was here nothing seemed worth it. Somedays Id wake up and wonder why I even bothered. Since I can remember my parents never gave a crap about me, my sister hated me and all my friends were just drug partners. Then the drugs faded and so did my 'friends'. All that was left was the sister who hated me and the parents who never cared. I fell in love, had to rely on him to take care of me when I couldnt walk, dress myself, and bathe myself. Finally somebody who loved me back. What a wonderful feeling. He left, the fucking military seems to ruin ev

I can't help but to keep thinking back to 2007. I was wreckless with not a care in the world. My day consisted of how I was going to get high that day, and I can't seem to get the thought out of my head that I shouldn't be here today, over 4 years later. Alive. Well. And a mother. I've cleaned up, 2007 was when I actually got my act together. I wouldn't trade the things i've done or seen for the world, I truely believe it has made me a better person and better prepared to raise my child. Though I'd never go back, I think as of now, that was the best time in my life. I don't think I'll ever feel that free and indestructable again. But now for